Whenever i write in this blog, it feels like im talking to myself. Expressing my thoughts and even revealing a bit of my secret is a part of this 'posting process'. But as of this moment, i have nothing in mind to share. [hahaha] Maybe it's because of the experience i had this morning (of which i am not willing to tell). ;pp I only have this essay i found on my folder that i wrote before the end of the semester. I'll just place it here so you have something to read. ;pp
WARNING: you are about to read something that is not informative, not even interesting. [hahaha] just for the sake of having something to post. tsk. ;p
In the land of make-believe, every person has the right to control or create the best of every thought they have. I’m not a certified doodler. But I sure am an approved daydreamer. There has been so much of today that I wouldn’t even want to sit in front of my computer and start writing something about anything that enters my mind. But here am I, still in my P.E. uniform, dressed quite haggard, chatting with my ‘not-in-the-mood’ friend Angle, hearing a very disturbing sound of the television, my cell phone being charged, my back inclining in the invisible ‘lean-on’ pad and ultimately, writing this unexpected essay. The negative ideologies I have in mind brought much confusion to my morality touching even the point of my convictions and sentiments. I have doubted my intellect for having so much of my questions left unanswered. It seems to me that everyone has his own way of escaping reality. Their unconsciousness brings them to where they can possibly live up to the expectations of the people around them. Well, admittedly, mine proves me otherwise. My dreams, my imaginations, and everything about my well-being brought me somewhere in a corner of my head wherein I find it inescapable. I have gone so far with the story I am making of myself to the point that it feels like I’m stuck into it. Sounds crazy right? This might be hard to believe but I am wandering deep beyond my ingenuity. My awareness of the present world is temporarily absent. These notions have I often put into subjection for further reflection of my fallacies. A concept of every belief I have does not in any way compliment even a piece of my individuality. I am a human biology student. It is very much expected of me to know how the mind works and how our thoughts occupy much space inside. In fact, I have a Psychology subject. And in all fairness, I am learning so much. Setting aside all of my personal opinions, I must say that indeed, humans are acting in accordance to the urge of their instincts. I must also say, with due respect, that whatever a man thinks is a mirror of his virtues in life. From all the things I learned, both inside the house and the secular world, I had a meaningful understanding of the significance of having a dream. Dream in a sense that you are foreseeing yourself in the future fulfilled in the endeavor you have long worked hard for. But as the saying goes, “For Every Rule, There is Always an Exemption”. Dreaming or having a vision is not bad. But be careful, because sometimes, wrong motives and ‘off-the-beam’ desires intervene leading you to a different outcome that is completely different from what you have expected. [Hope you got my point]
Here, I have cooked up a fresh snapshot of my latest ‘out-of-this-world’ thoughts that led me to a realization of my own insanities.
I want to tour the world without the thought of loosing chances and the fear of wasting time. I want to live the epitome of what life is all about and what it has in store for me. I want to fly and touch the clouds just as safe enough not to risk the situation of being between life and death. I want to join the dolphins and drown in the depth and vastness of the sea. I want to gather the stars and be able to form an artwork in the sky. I want to make Saturn a place where mankind may dwell. I want to live a life good enough to realize its limitations with a feeling of acceptance and on the other hand realize that life is better in reality than in dreams. I want to meet a famous person from the past and be able to steal even just a piece of his works and make it mine. I want to personally meet a penguin in the Antarctic and have a photo with him. I want to ride a personalized hot air balloon architected by Rmie Malit. I want to have a music studio where I can jam with Angle Jarlos. I want to sing and perform in a theater abroad directed by my sister. I want to invent a machine wherein I can manipulate every technology-related crafts. Ultimately, I want to have a clone of myself.
Well, just for the sake of compensating my nonsensible side, here I also wrote an overview of my dreams that I want to go through with and satisfy the highest level of the hierarchy of needs which is self-fulfillment.
Here, I have cooked up a fresh snapshot of my latest ‘out-of-this-world’ thoughts that led me to a realization of my own insanities.
I want to tour the world without the thought of loosing chances and the fear of wasting time. I want to live the epitome of what life is all about and what it has in store for me. I want to fly and touch the clouds just as safe enough not to risk the situation of being between life and death. I want to join the dolphins and drown in the depth and vastness of the sea. I want to gather the stars and be able to form an artwork in the sky. I want to make Saturn a place where mankind may dwell. I want to live a life good enough to realize its limitations with a feeling of acceptance and on the other hand realize that life is better in reality than in dreams. I want to meet a famous person from the past and be able to steal even just a piece of his works and make it mine. I want to personally meet a penguin in the Antarctic and have a photo with him. I want to ride a personalized hot air balloon architected by Rmie Malit. I want to have a music studio where I can jam with Angle Jarlos. I want to sing and perform in a theater abroad directed by my sister. I want to invent a machine wherein I can manipulate every technology-related crafts. Ultimately, I want to have a clone of myself.
Well, just for the sake of compensating my nonsensible side, here I also wrote an overview of my dreams that I want to go through with and satisfy the highest level of the hierarchy of needs which is self-fulfillment.
I dream of becoming a medical doctor and a political personality at the same time. I dream of being the best of every role I portray in my life. I dream of fulfilling other’s dream by the testimony of my life. I dream of saving a life of someone who’s in the lowest ebb of desperation. I dream of surrendering my life to the One who gave it to me. I dream of becoming the best of what I can be. I dream of establishing a league of doctors to build up a foundation for the less fortunate. I dream of influencing and changing someone’s life completely. I dream of overcoming the worst part of my personality. I dream of reaching the finish line on time. I dream of running this race with grace and patience. I dream of leaving a godly legacy. Ultimately, I dream of winning the smile of God.
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Woah! Thanks for the patience! ;p
I actually wrote this essay weeks ago just for the purpose of killing time.
Though my reason is not a good one, i still find it profitable. [am i too ironic?] ;p
Anyway, im glad i didnt have to say much. [hahaha]
Till then.....
-SeReNe-
tied up.
